another day, another girl, another midnight rant

desperate_man @ 2007-10-07T11:50:00

2007-10-07T16:51:17Z

shitty excuse for closure, really, i am the biggest ass

but...

i WILL be happy, if it's the last thing i ever do

Please change all the male pronouns to female ones

2007-02-24T16:21:11Z

EPONINE
And now I'm all alone again
Nowhere to go no one to turn to,
Did not want your money sir
I came out here coz i was told to
And now the night is near
Now I can make believe he's here.

Sometimes I walk alone at night
When everybody else is sleeping
I think of him and then I'm happy
With the company I'm keeping
The city goes to bed
And I can live inside my head.

On my own
Pretending he's beside me
All alone, I walk with him till morning
Without him
I feel his arms around me
And when I lose my way I close my eyes
And he has found me

In the rain the pavement shines like silver
All the lights are misty in the river
In the darkness, the trees are full of starlight
And all I see is him and me for ever and forever

And I know it's only in my mind
That I'm talking to myself and not to him
And although I know that he is blind
Still I say, there's a way for us

I love him
But when the night is over
He is gone, the river's just a river
Without him the world around me changes
The trees are bare and everywhere
The streets are full of strangers

I love him
But every day I'm learning
All my life I've only been pretending
Without me his world will go on turning
A world that's full of happiness
That I have never known!

I love him
I love him
I love him
But only on my own.

desperate_man @ 2007-02-24T09:55:00

2007-02-24T15:56:33Z

ENJORAS
Marius, you're late.

JOLY
What's wrong today?
You look as if you've seen a ghost.

GRANTAIRE
Some wine and say what's going on!

MARIUS
A ghost you say... a ghost maybe
She was just like a ghost to me
One minute there, and she was gone!

GRANTAIRE
I am agog!
I am aghast!
Is Marius in love at last?
I've never heard him `ooh' and `aah'
You talk of battles to be won
And here he comes like Don Ju-an
It's better than an o-per-a!

ENJOLRAS
It is time for us all
To decide who we are
Do we fight for the right
To a night at the opera now?
Have you asked of yourselves
What's the price you might pay?
Is it simply a game
For rich young boys to play?
The color of the world
Is changing day by day...

Red - the blood of angry men!
Black - the dark of ages past!
Red - a world about to dawn!
Black - the night that ends at last!

MARIUS
Had you been there tonight
You might know how it feels
To be struck to the bone
In a moment of breathless delight!
Had you been there tonight
You might also have known
How the world may be changed
In just one burst of light!
And what was right seems wrong
And what was wrong seems right!

GRANTAIRE
Red...

MARIUS
I feel my soul on fire!

GRANTAIRE
Black...

MARIUS
My world if she's not there!

ALL
Red...

MARIUS
The color of desire!

ALL
Black...

MARIUS
The color of despair!

ENJOLRAS
Marius, you're no longer a child
I do not doubt you mean it well
But now there is a higher call.
Who cares about your lonely soul?
We strive toward a larger goal
Our little lives don't count at all!

ALL
Red - the blood of angry men!
Black - the dark of ages past!
Red - a world about to dawn!
Black - the night that ends at last!

desperate_man @ 2006-07-08T00:05:00

2006-07-08T05:06:49Z

feliz cumpeaños dear molly

desperate_man @ 2006-06-11T09:55:00

2006-06-11T14:54:21Z

holand 1, serbia zero, up next mexico v. iran, then in the afternoon angola v. portugal

tehre u are tyla

2006-06-06T04:57:26Z

it's the hosue of m poster if u knwo wat hosue of m is, lol

desperate_man @ 2006-03-28T22:07:00

2006-03-29T04:07:23Z

http://www.etcconnect.com/products/products.asp?2

i want tat

desperate_man @ 2006-03-09T21:04:00

2006-03-10T03:04:24Z

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Your Name
Your Job	Priest
You got in a fight with
Because you	work for the Alliance
but you helped fight
and you hooked up with
But at the end of the day you left Serenity to go	Work for Niska

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desperate_man @ 2006-02-15T21:18:00

2006-02-16T03:19:04Z

leave an anonymous comment with:

[1] one secret.
[2] one compliment.
[3] one non-compliment.
[4] one love note.
[5] lyrics to a song.
[6] how old you are.
[7] how long we've been friends.
[8] a hint to who you are.
[9] what you think about me.

and post in your journal.

desperate_man @ 2006-02-12T19:24:00

2006-02-13T01:25:29Z

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desperate_man @ 2006-01-08T17:44:00

2006-01-08T23:45:32Z

Your arch-nemesis is:	Alien

Why?	Because they cheated at twister
The winner will be...	Well I guess you because they consider you a friend
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i think it amusing tat i can beat an alien up and in TWIESTER, but i cant find the wya into a womans heart
peace e z
the man upstairs

desperate_man @ 2006-01-08T00:45:00

2006-01-08T06:46:46Z

i feel kinda good bout myself again, lol, megna lloyd-jones has to be the awesomest person ever, i finally over her, i came to the conclusion tat we were fetus buddies adn we somehow gto separated i dk, but yes I BE OVER HER, lol
peace e z
the man upstairs

desperate_man @ 2006-01-06T23:45:00

2006-01-07T05:45:42Z

FEBRUARY:
Abstract thoughts. Loves reality and abstract. Intelligent and clever. Changing personality. Attractive. sexiest out of everyone. Temperamental. Quiet, shy and humble. Honest and loyal. Determined to reach goals. Loves freedom. Rebellious when restricted. Loves aggressiveness. Too sensitive and easily hurt. Gets angry really easily but does not show it. Dislikes unnecessary things. Loves making friends but rarely shows it. Daring and stubborn. Ambitious. Realizing dreams and hopes. Sharp. Loves entertainment and leisure. Romantic on the inside not outside. Superstitious and ludicrous. Spendthrift. Tries to learn to show emotions.MOST HORNY OUT OF THEM ALL.

it is so accurate in most parts, that teh fact that there are wrong things can be completelly ignored
peace e z
the man upstairs

desperate_man @ 2006-01-05T23:44:00

2006-01-06T05:44:30Z

tomorrow i begin with a clean slate
peace e z
the man upstairs

desperate_man @ 2006-01-04T21:31:00

2006-01-05T03:34:57Z

so weird, i just dont belong, i dk, i quit at everythign but soccer adn theatre, i jsut do
peace e z
the man upstairs

desperate_man @ 2005-12-29T14:23:00

2005-12-29T20:24:53Z

first official entry on my new computer, ehr name is Zandria adn she is sexy, i think i'm over megan, but i dk for sure, oh well, do the question thingie
peace e z
the man upstairs

desperate_man @ 2005-12-29T00:42:00

2005-12-29T06:42:22Z

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desperate_man @ 2005-12-26T10:01:00

2005-12-26T16:01:34Z

See michael i'm nto gay the quiz said it, so u and jacky's test can go bibi and out teh door

You scored as Straight. I like you very much and hope that you are succesful in life thankyou for being very accepting

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Straight

80%

The all-round cute gay guy

70%

Raging Queer

60%

A Big Bear

60%

S + M guy

40%

Straight Queer Basher

20%

Straight Acting

20%

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a quickie

2005-12-20T16:17:09Z

i need more friends/comments, i'm still a nube on teh whole lj thign so u guys help me get buddies, lol,

"I am everything I hate" some random person

"live in the pain of remembrance, so you can remember how to forget." ME

peace e z
the man upstairs

desperate_man @ 2005-12-18T12:33:00

2005-12-18T18:34:03Z

so yesterday i went to rehersal were we had kind of a run,, didnt actually work at all, then i came home organized my room in liek ten minutes then went to katymills wiht kevin to meet up with gonzo and alex to go shopping, then we went to walmart i bought present for some people, then we went back to katy mills met up with mike michael g. then we ate dinner then megan sarah and maddie got there adn we watched rent, it was so annoying cuz this time i cried when angel died and megan was sitting next to me, not a very manly thing i guess, i dont knwo i should just stop liking ehr but i cant, adn i dont really think i want to , i dk it's a really weird feeling, then i went to my grandmothers hosue took liek a one hour shower to watch my feelings away, then slept then woke up cleaned her house now i'm here for like 2 minutes adn now i'm goign xmas shopping with her,
peace e z
the man upstairs

desperate_man @ 2005-12-17T00:13:00

2005-12-17T06:18:22Z

ok so today i went to skool adn took ym soccer final, coach pissed em off cuz he still cant tell me wta fucking team i'm on, then i went and worked on theatre, meaning chilled with keivn adn recorded like 3 cues if even tat much, then Tb, michael adn i walked to sonic, then joel gave us a ride back, then rehearsal was a really busy day, lots of work, theni went to mcgowans hosue, we had a kick aass tiem, then i came home watched boston legal, single greatest quote form tat show ever : "i have an erection... it's a good sign...let the trial begin...i'm ready"
Denny Crane, Boston Legal
sounds liek ti's not funny btu if u here william shatner saying ti u would laugh ru fucking ass off, trust me, then i stopped watching it, had pity on ymself because she jsut does not understand wat it means ot feel like i do (no exageration she literally doesnt understand), now i'm here laughing silently at gonzalo in my head
peace e z
the man upstairs

i love how teh internet knwos me better than msot people

2005-12-16T04:09:54Z

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desperate_man @ 2005-12-15T14:50:00

2005-12-15T20:51:03Z

so i ahd my algebra exam, did realy good i think, chemistry eaxam, did really bad, then i talked to some people in teh hall, then jacky drove michael adn em to sonic where we waited and waited for gonzalo, hten we went to taret, tehn we walked home, nwo i'm sitting on ym ass bout to go maple
peace e z
the man upstairs

desperate_man @ 2005-12-14T23:07:00

2005-12-15T05:07:59Z

so i totally got ditched by my voice lessons teacher, tehn i went to wings and more, then i came home, michaelw as gonna come over, but he didnt, talked online for a bit told megan my story with shank today (fuck how i miss tat kick ass lady), took a bath, reviewed for algebra, adn now i'm studying ym fucking ass of for chemistry, actually now i'm gonna look at teh answers to teh review and sleep fuck chemistry
peace e z
the man upstairs

desperate_man @ 2005-12-14T18:01:00

2005-12-15T00:02:29Z

fucking annoymus people, sya who u are
peace e z
the man upstairs